Thank you for being so honest. I know its been a long time since you have posted , but I just read this and thought about how much courage it takes to be this honest. I have the same struggle you do. I have been single 13 years, and adore men still. The only thing that has kept me pure, is to keep taking my hunger to God. He helped me by asking me to do things like stop having extended eye contact, and to stop looking at men to lust after them, and to stop paying attention to if they are reacting to me.
It has helped a great deal. I was made to be attracted to men, to want to be alluring, and to enjoy that, but I am saving it for someone I know clearly God has sent. Many have come my way, but not the one.
I have had to sort out many things in my singleness, and learning how to take my deepest longings- even physical ones to Jesus and ask Him to help me has always been my strong tower of escape.
I also took the setting the captive free Way of Purity course which helped me ask God to remove all the sexual images I have stored in my head, and to help me stop giving into the alluring fantasies which I had been feeding on in my mind.
Some day I hope to give a whole heart to my man, and a wife who is honest with God about her real struggles.
I thank you for being honest in yours. Men are just human beings too- and I had a issue with worshiping them . Jesus is the one who is always going to be there, always- forever, and He alone deserves my worship. It took me a long time to get there, and I still would like a husband companion to walk with in life, but I got to the point where I realized that God is enough and that He has shown me through out the years He is faithful and passionate about me personally.
I know God loves you very much - enough to die for you, and will lead you each day as your life unfolds is the way that is the biggest blessing to you, even if it doesn't feel like it at the time. I know He will bless you in a special way for choosing to make Him a priority and sacrifice the attention of men for however long He chooses.
In our society women without men do suffer. We are left vulnerable in many ways. But, if you are set apart for Him, He always makes a way, and shows His care and glory no matter what. When He whispers sweet things in our ears, they are always to build us up as women, not to manipulate. There are so many men out there who are waiting to take advantage of single women, and having a very close relationship with Him makes us very good discerners of intentions. Not being so willing to fall into traps that might harm us or ruin our lives.
Thanks for your post and that reminder.
